SGV Dream...

When I as a child, I dreamt of becoming an astronaut... Well, I guess every boy would dream of becoming one after seeing sci-fi movies which usually is the subject of most cartoons and 'for children' movies...

After two years (in grade six), I realized that to be an astronaut would just be a dream... And I have to shift to one which is more realizable / attainable... Than I wanted to be a pilot... I like to travel... I like to go places and see beautiful things... I don't want to confine my heart to just one place... I like to experience adventure... to get new things others don't see... Then, once again, I realized that I can't be one... Considering practicality, I thought that it would not be within our living and support capacity...

So I decided to be a doctor... I want to help those in need... I want to save lives... I want to be of service to mankind... (Its so righteous...) I thought that to be a doctor is a fulfillment of my dream to be one who will be remembered by everybody... Not just by my clan, nor the next family generations, but by the whole world... Then one day, I thought that it was not for me.

There is only an hour left before I have to pass my application form to the registrar of my alama mater - De La Salle University - Dasmariñas and I'm still confused with what to take. Then I decided to give my first choice to BS Accountancy, then second to BS Nursing, and thrid to Political Science. My high school assessments revealed though that I will excel with Communication Arts. But I did not choose the course because I thought that it could just help me as a hobby / interest and nothing more.

Now, I am a Certified Public Accountant and it feels great that with this profession I as able to make my family proud... I'm working at SGV and it took me 4 years to realize such goal... I got high scores in the board exams... I got good impressions from my seniors... I got everything... (Well, except the salary)... But its still okey... Its enough that I had all of these...

But suddenly I realized that I'm still not happy... I know the work... I think I like to be something different... I don't know if I had really reached my dream or I did not make it to my personal legend? When I read "The Alchemist", I suddenly realized that maybe this really is not what I want to... I want to travel, to be a chef... to be a doctor... I don't know... The only problem is how I would be able to know what my real dream is? Are there omens that will lead me to what I should become? I really don't know... Or will I still know?

Am I Half Crazy?

Half Crazy - Johnny Gill

Know I havent slept a week at all since you've been gone

And my eyes are kinda tired from crying all night long

Know I've never been too good at cooking just for one

It's so lonely here without you darling come back home

'Cause I'm half crazy

Feelin' sorry for myself

Half crazy

Worried you'd find someone else to love

Know life hasnt been much fun at all since you've been gone

And my eyes being to feel each time I hear a sound

I spent every minute asking myself what went wrong

Can't we try to talk it over baby come back home

'Cause I'm half crazy

Feelin' sorry for myself

Half crazy

Worried you'd find someone else to love

But baby there is no-one else

Half crazy

For everything you saying

Half crazy

No one else could love you like I do

(break)

'Cause I'm half crazy

Feelin' sorry for myself

Half crazy

Worried you'd find someone else to love

But baby there is no-one else

Half crazy

For everything you saying

Half crazy

No one else could ever love you

No one else could ever be

Half crazy

Feeling sorry for myself

And I'm worried you'll find someone else

Feeling sorry for myselfHalf Crazy

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