Nagugluhan na ko

ok... alam ko na marami din akong kamalian sa buhay... alam ko rin na hindi ako perpektong tao... pero bakit naman ganun... lagi akong naiipit sa mga bagay na kailangan akong mag-give way sa iba... o kaya naman na ako ang maunang humingi ng sorry... i know that its the right thing to do... pero bakit lagi na lang...

anyway, galit sa akin si ChenG pero hindi ko alam kung bakit... siguro nalaman nya na yung tungkol kay lhen... hindi ko kasi sinabi sa kanya nung una kasi alam kong hindi dapat... pero sa palagay mo ay may nagsabi na sa kanya na hindi naman dapat magsabi...

Si jojo naman ay nagalit din pero dahil lang sa misunderstanding.. ewan ko ba

Si tin-tin naman ay naiinis din dahilsa isang bagay na ipinipilit nya na alam ko na hindi ko naman talaga alam...

Well, retreat na namin sa friday hanggang saturday... sana magkaayos-ayos na kami...

I Say A Little Prayer for You

Say a little prayer for you,
Say a little prayer for you

From the moment mi wake up
Before mi put on mi make up
Mi say a little prayer for you

While combing mi hair now
Mi a wonder what dress me wear now
Mi say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part how I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be
Without you would only be heartbreak for me

Mi run for the bus love
Mi ride and mi think about us love
Mi say a little prayer for you

At work mi just take time
And all through mi coffee break time
Mi say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part and I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be
Without you would only be heartbreak for me

Say a little prayer for you, mi a go say
A little prayer for you

My darling believe me, for me
There is no one but you,
Say you’ll love me too.

Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part and I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be.....
Forever and ever
You’ll stay in my heart and I’ll love you
Forever and ever
We never will part and I’ll love you
Together together
That’s how it should be without you
Would only be heartbreak for me...

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Hmmm... The song is very beautiful... Isn't it... This is one of my favorite songs... Well, this version is by Diana King... Little as you know, I am a hopeless Romantic... I started lovin this song since the time I watched the movie My Bestfriend's Wedding... Medyo kasi nainlove ako sa movie though hindi maganda yung naging outcome ng lovelife ni Julia Roberts... I realized na love really is when you'er able to let go of your loved one so that she will be able to enjoy her life and go with the one she really love... Alam mo yun... Nakakaawa si Julia Roberts for she did not have his bestfriend... but even though, nakaktuwa naman kasi kung makikita mo yung ginawa nya dahil sa pagmamahal nya sa bestfriend nya... Minsan, i ask myself... kaya ko kaya yung ginawa nya... I mean, in my part... Can I let go... so that she may be happy? Can i sacrifice for love... Siguro oo... Like what others are doing...

Lam nyo... Try watchin' the movie... Its so beautiful... Its so lovely... Its so romantic and touching... Tinamaan talaga ako...

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Ok... Another movie I watched was IF ONLY by Jennifer Love Hewitt... Maganda talaga... One of the best... I was inlove with the movie... This is another form of sacrifice for love... Ang nangyari kasi ay parang nagkaroon ng premoinition yung lalaki na yung gf nya ay maaaksidente... Tapos ayun... Panaginip lang pala pero yung mga nangyari sa panaginip eh nagkakatotoo... So ang ginawa nya eh triny nyang ilayo yung gf nya sa aksidente and yung time na alam nya ng mamamatay yung gf nya sa car accident eh ang ginawa nya na lang eh niyakap nya ang gf nya para siya ang mamatay... Out of love, he did it! What a sacrifice for love!!! Nakakaiyak/Nakakalungkot yung nangyari kasi somehow, perople will see it absurd to do all such things just for love... Pero sa ibang tao... kahit buhay nila itataya nila para sa taong mahal nila... Parang ako... Lahat gagawin ko para sa taong mahal ko... Kasi alam ko ding kung mawawala siya, eh parang nawala na rin ako...

***FrEiNdZ FoReVeR***

'''gRaDuAtIon SoNg'''
...FrIeNdS fOrEvEr...

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

*Repeat chorus*

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

*Repeat chorus 3x*

Nakakaiyak pala ang Huli

Hi guys!
We had our said to be last performance in college in the JPIA General Assembly... Nalungkot ako... Sobra... kasi we had this play which was directed by Tom... its a pooling of ideas from the whole class which syempre puro kalokohan na naman... We had our very own Imang (Fatima from Kampanerang Kuba), our own casts of superheroes, Darna portrayed by Piolo and Krystala protrayed by Tope... with matching costumes ha... And we also had the four sisters of Encantadia especially represented by Tim, Natz, Kris (with the prostitute like hair), and Jojo... Syempre, they all look bad kasi muscled guys tapos biglang nagdamit babae... But it brought laughter all throughout the play... I played Boy Abunda who is the judge in the courtroom while Jobel, Kristine, and Lourdez (i think) were the three sisters in Kampanerang Kuba... Lou Anne played as Veronica while Divine and Tristan played the roles of Valentina and Prinsipe Abok respectively... We used such characters and relate it with the present political crises we have... Zyrine played the role of PGMA who said I'm sorry for her unrewading acts and many more... I was very glad for all of my classmates participated in the activity... After the play, a powerpoint presentation was made and presented by Tom with matching song (Graduation Song by Vitamin C which implies friends forever)... It showed the development of the whole BSA / BSM graduating class batch 2005. Naiyak ako... Nakita nila yung devt ko from mataba pa ako until the time i got slimmer... kung pano yung laughter ng bawat isa... the company and memories we've shared... lahat talaga... ang ganda nga eh... Sana hindi kami magkahiwahiwalay na magkakaclassmates kasi mahal ko sila at i really feel good when im with my BSA / BSM 41 class... though syempre may mga misunderstandings... ganun naman talaga... its natural... right? hehe... I just hope that we'll all be friends forever...

TIME after TIME

TIME AFTER TIME

I'm lying in my bed
Hear the clock tickin
I think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion, there's nothing new
Flashback, warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after...
Sometimes you'll picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me
I can't hear what you say
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
CHORUS:
If you're lost, you can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you
I will be waiting
Time after time
(repeat)
After my picture fades
And darkness has turned to gray
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm okay
Secret stolen
All from deep inside
The 808's on time
(CHORUS)
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The 808's on time
(CHORUS)
(repeat)
Time after time...
(until fades)

Mothers' Day Specials

Essay naman ng konte... Hehehe... For the Mothers' Day... ATLAS of MY WORLD
By: Blue Striker

“She broke the bread into two fragments and gave it to her children, who ate with eagerness. ‘She hath kepth none for herself’,” grumbled the sergeant.
“Because she is not hungry,“ said the soldier.
“’No’, said the sergeant, ‘because she is a mother’”
- written by Victor Hugo

That is how great a mother is… She’ll do anything for her children… for her family… She’ll shed even her last tear…
I remember a time, or should I say the times wherein I asked my mother to wake me by 11:00 pm so I could study my accounting lessons for the next day. Although she had to wake up early (about 4:00 am) to go to work, she did not hesitate to give me answers like “OKEY”, “SURE”, and “SIGE ANAK”. I did not actually realize the burden that she have taken by not sleeping just to wake me --- accompanied by the fact that knowing that I have slept at 9:00 p.m. already, she provided an allowance of an hour before waking me… She was awake until 12! It was also followed by the very big mistake I was always doing --- Telling her that late, “Ma, mamaya na lang pong 3:00… Inaantok pa po ako eh… Thank you na lang po…” And she would wake up by 3:00 to wake me up. Good thing, I had the strength and sensitivity to wake up (kapal na kasi ng mukha ko kung mamaya na lang ulit!) Hmmm… What will you do if I do that to you? Haha! I think by now, I’m already dead… Of course you’ll kill me for asking you to do something which will result to nothing!
While in vacation, I tried to reflect with myself and then the “waking up” idea popped into my mind. I asked myself (you better ask yourself too!), “Did I actually do that?” I couldn’t imagine how stupid and immature I was when I did that… With the fact that it was done for a number of times… I was very insensitive! I was not even able to thank her in a very formal and appreciating manner… Too bad…
You may say that I am being a little dramatic for writing this but I’m pretty sure that in one way or another, its not just me who has done it and is NOW contemplating with such a crazy idea. Well, I’m not saying that you are doing it (or maybe?)… But its just a sort of reflecting on what our parents particularly our mothers have done for us… I was thinking of a funny topic but my soul has taken me to this thought --- paying tribute to the person whom carried us and will always carry us towards life… Our mothers…
Mothers are like ATLAS (the one carrying the world)! They would carry everything from small to big things… happiness to sadness… Likewise, their love is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path. They are unique!
Have you ever wondered how they were doing it? Look at the scenario --- They have to manage our homes and do some budgeting, go to work everyday, support their husbands and help their children develop intellectually, spiritually, and emotionally, act as a queen of peace to them (like what usually happens in our home), and finally, absorb everybody’s problems. Work! Work! Work! Can you do that? They don’t even have the time for themselves! Their lives are of something no one would aspire to have!
What they should get is full appreciation… Tribute… Acclaim… Greatest recognition of all (even greater than a noble prize)… They are not just national heroes! But, the best and finest among the National Heroes!
I wanted to thank my mom for everything she have done for me… From conceiving me to me now! She has made me… She has changed me and turned my life into something worth living for (and of course, you are too!)… I wanted to thank her for her greatest sacrifices I could never pay in any way. I wanted to ask for an apology for every wrong thing I have done to her… I am sorry…
You! Yes you… I seek for your help to ask your mothers to read this, if not the whole work, even this part…
To all mothers, we love you! This is for you! You are the most promising… The BEST! The greatest… The angel to whom we owe our lives…
From Howard Johnson:
M is for the million things she gave me,
O means only that she’s growing old,
T is for the tears she shed to save me,
H is for her heart purest gold,
E is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
R means right, and right she’ll always be.
Put them together, they spell:
“MOTHER”… A word that means the world to me…

hahaha

Hey... Its been a long time since I last worte in this blog... tssskkk... I was really busy this semester... Ngayon nga lang ulit ako nakapaginternet eh...

For the past few days, should I say months, ang daming nangyari... May mga nakakatawa at meron namang nakakainis... At any rate, anthing that happened has their very own special reasons for my very own benefit... hehehe...

Di na ko masyadong nageexpects sa scholarship ko... I got very low grades in Law and in Finance... Sayang nga kasi ngayon pang last sem ng 3rd year ako mawawala sa scholarship pati sa Dean's List... Well, inanticipate ko na yun... Kainis nga eh... Tatawanan ko na lang ang mga ito para hindi na ako malungkot... Hope ull be laughing with me guys...

Our REED professor required us to make a 10 page Christian Praxis na kung tawagin namin ng mga klasmeyts ko ay "THESIS"... Sa totoo lang eh excited na akong maghanap ng good topic for this report kaso medyo tinatamad ako kasi isinabay pa ang REED na report na ito sa mga major requirements namin sa skul... haaaayyyy...

I eagerly asked a question to one of my professors but then she answered me with "I don't expect a question like that coming from you..." Well, i felt a little downed by the words coz I thought that I have lost my dignity, my pride, and everything inside the classroom... (dinagdagan pa ba naman ng kinaiinisan kong classmate ng mga reactions na "naaaayyyy""nyaaaannn"...) Pero syempre medyo over reacting lang ako sa mga feelings na toh... Lam nyo naman na exagerated ako most of the times eh... Pero talagang parang naisip ko na napahiya ako?... Kasi diba ako yung taong easily hurt ang feelings... But then I realized through a reflection from my close friends that maybe what our professor wanted to tell me is that she is not expecting such a question because she is expecting me to ask something more intelligent (perhaps of a higher level)... Di naman ako nerd... Di ako nagyayabang... Siguro nga medyo natanga lang nung mga time na yun... Pero syempre hindi naman noh... I'm not perfect... May mga bagay din akong hindi ganong kabilis na maintindihan, though may mga times talaga na I try to make a fool out of myself, acting as if standing in a lower sense of knowledge para lang magpatawa and to give life sa mga usapan... (I think la namang masama dun diba?!?!?) pero sa totoo, talagang alam ko naman... Siguro nga mali ang kwestyon ko and maybe its just my prof's way of telling me to stop acting like that and maintain my high standards? (Yabang ko naman...) hehehe... anyway, tapos na yun... Basta pagaaralan ko muna lahat ng kwestyons ko para hindi na ako masabihan ng ganun...

Balik sa REED... pinag-group na kami... And know what? My groupmates include the two persons who had contributed much in my love history... Si LEN (whom i still love...) and Cheng (who became my gf for 3 months)... Grabe tawanan ng tawanan ang mga klasmeyt ko saka walang tigil sa katutukso... kainis nga eh... hmmm... pero ako naman syempre gustong gusto ko... Makakasama ko ulit ang pinakamamahal ko... Though hindi nya alam na I still have feelings to her... Sabi ko kasi eh wala na eh... hehehe...

My sister is currently staying with my aunt in Makati... Kainis nga eh kasi hindi ko na nakikita ang baby namin na si PB... Misss ko na siya pwera pag nag-aaral kasi hindi ako makaaral kapag nandito yung bata dahil laging nakikipaglaro sa akin... Eh syempre ayaw ko naman na hindi pagbigyan yung kagustuhan nun... Ako pa, eh ang bait-bait kong bata... Hahaha...

Okey, hanggang dito na lang muna... blog ulit ako mamaya... Ingatz... Happy Valentines!!!